MEMOIR: Five years, two people.

We all deserve someone who will 

make us look forward to tomorrow 

and the day after that.
I am rather blessed to find someone.

Once upon a time, I was depressed and brokenhearted.

My heart was in a state of calamity. My ever so stupid first love gave up on me.

And so I gave up on myself too.

And so I changed.

I entered relationships with some boys I hardly know.

Although it was only through text messages and phone calls that I had these ‘boyfriends’ who ‘love’ me, I somehow felt existing. Half-healed yet existing. 

I played games. I played with their hearts just to be happy again. And when there seems no chance of happiness anymore..

a magic happened.

"NAKAHANAP AKO NG KATAPAT KO."

My boy, ain't the one that I saw coming.
He healed what had been crushed into pieces.
He loved the unlovable.

It was on the 4th of August 2008 when I made a promise to be his best girlfriend I can be.

He isn't the most handsome guy you'll ever meet. 
He also doesn't have the body of the actors we fantasize about.
He.. He's just him.


This guy makes me the happiest everyday. He never gets tired of making me smile, making me laugh. He never gets tired of me. (Lucky me)

He always surprises me and I so love surprises!!!! :) He makes me fall in love with him even more each day. 
He makes me happy.


This man is such a happy person and that's what I like about him.
He laughs over simple things.
He laughs when I trip, fall and break something.
He laughs to my dumbest jokes.
He laughs so hard that each of his tooth is seen.
He laughs so hard that he doesn't notice the spark in my eyes as I look at this stupid, happy young man.

Our relationship is very playful in a way that we actually treat the other as his/her best bud. We even call the other names that are either dirty or funny. *insert evil laugh

HE TEASES ME AND I SPANK HIM.
HE WINKS AT ME AND I PINCH HIM.
HE PLAYS WITH MY HAIR AND I SQUEEZE HIS NOSE.




He is a total couchpotato.
And so am I (which I guess why we clicked that quick).
We usually spend the day together watching movies.
We both have this love for scifi and comedy ones.
He watches me cry from chick flicks.
He shuts up when it is my favorite actor on the screen.

We play Call of Duty. He teaches me how to kill
those barbaric-brain-eating Nazi Zombies.
He teaches me how to prepare for the 
ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE.
Which is already happening to London.
Don't laugh.

 

   

He prepares me food. Good food for that matter.
He knows how much I love bread and desserts.
He knows how much I love him.
He knows how I am so proud of him.
He knows how thankful I am to know and be loved by him.

Isn't it nice to find someone who, in spite
of your own differences and imperfections, fits you perfectly?
Who, after seeing how much mess you can be, still chooses to stay with you. Someone who didn't promise to you anything but proves how much he is serious about making you the happiest.


I do not love him. I'm in love with him.
Despite the flaws, imperfections, craziness and belly as big as a walrus'
I'm in love with him

TO NICKO: Please don't break my heart. You live there.

MOVIE REVIEW: PROJECT X

The party you've only dreamed about.

I know this movie is kind of disturbing. You could read the other blogs and skip this one if you don’t see it fit to your level of understanding.

Here’s the link of the movie’s synopsis you won’t be grasping as you read my movie review.

Project X plot summary

“Tonight’s about the girls we never had a shot at. Tonight’s about changing the game.”

It’s a movie showing how boys do everything to be cool; how teenagers behave when no parent is present; how white girls take their tops off and how one night and one party changes the names of these three young men in the society they're in.

This movie is kind of overwhelming in its own way. I have chosen this because I want others to (also) learn all the wrong lessons this party movie brings. Have fun reading!

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Everyone at high school wants to be cool. Everyone wants to be the cool guy girls will look at mouth open. Everyone wants to be the cool chick guys will love to get. Thomas, JB and Costa are just three of those who are struggling to make a name.

This made Costa, the group’s mastermind to everything stupid, desperate on making Thomas’ birthday as memorable as every party they were not invited to. The movie showed the massive influence of technology and social networks which, after enabling so many teenagers be informed about the said party, resulted to an epic teenage house party in a quiet Californian suburb that spirals out of control.

Costa even hired security guards who, unbelievably, were of great help to the project x.

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A lot of music. A lot of boobs. So basically, if you’re a homeowner, it’s a horror movie but if you’re a teenager, it a woooooh! 

The movie is funny in a shocking way, but parents will be appalled at its message: that a shy teen "needs" a huge party to break out of his shell and become a social success, regardless of the fact that the cost is thousands of dollars in damage.

If you’re not popular, you will get everybody wasted and the next morning he’s cool. And if you’re a girl, all you have to do is take off your clothes and make out with several boys and the next morning everyone looks up at you like you’re some kind of a royalty. Dress up like a slut and you get the guy you want.

Project X takes the perspective that a great party is one in which we can turn off our brains and let our bodies go wild. But that doesn't change the fact that it's too intense for teens, and too disturbing for parents.

With Project X, it’s not watching a party movie. It’s being in that party movie. This disturbing, fun, cute, sexy, bad ass movie made me laugh the whole time. And scared at the end. And I couldn’t put into words how crazy it was. 

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Well, surprisingly, I was able to pick some lessons from the movie.

One is that if we know our parents trust us, it is our obligation to keep not break this trust. Thomas’ parents left entrusting him the house, the dog and their dog Milo. He even received a minivan as a gift. What he returns is a disaster.

Another is that not everything our friends say is good for everyone. It’s not bad to tell them when they are wrong. Costa invited so many people without even telling the birthday celebrant. Costa made Thomas do stupid things. One was trying to get a shot at the hottest girl in the party. Costa made him believe than everything will be alright and that nothing bad will ever happen. But was he right? Was Thomas right on trusting so much to Costa regarding the matter? No.

Sometimes we are too busy looking for the right one when in fact that person is just waiting for you to notice him/her.

Not everything we see from movies is good. They may show how going to parties, drinking a lot and consuming drugs could be happy, all fun and games that they fail to expose the damages that are usually brought by these activities. Project X is not one of them because it showed the consequences and all. SOME PARTIES END DISASTROUSLY!

Lastly is that we don’t have to make a fool of ourselves to be able to fit in in the society. Sometimes the extreme desire to be popular just causes more destruction. Teenagers, there are a lot of ways to be known and to have a name. There are better things to do than getting wasted.

Thank you so much for reading. And just so you know, PROJECT X 2 now getting prepped up.

"To the break of dawn, yo!"

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MOVIE REVIEW: RUBY SPARKS

Surely she's too good to be real? Not at all.

RUBY SPARKS is a very thoughtful movie that teaches people so many lessons about love and life. In this blog, I will try my best to share my thoughts about it and enumerate my realizations after seeing the movie.

Here’s the link of the movie’s plot summary so you can get where I’m coming from.

 Ruby Sparks plot summary

SELFISHNESS. LOVE. CONTROL. AND TOO MUCH OF EACH.

(Brace yourselves! A lot of spoilers are coming your way!)

Sometimes we tend to become lonely and we feel alone so when someone comes along and adds light and a little of spark to our lonely life, we become desperate on keeping them. We become so scared with the thought of losing them that we, unfortunately, become selfish and want them for ourselves alone that we forget this person also has his/her own life.

Calvin is a frustrated and sad writer because not only he suddenly became blocked and could not write again, he also just went a break-up. The only friends he goes out with are his brother Harry, who, together with their mother, sets him up on different blind dates and his dog Scotty which he thought would help him meet new people but is scared.

So when Ruby comes to his life HE LOOKED AT HER LIKE A BLIND MAN SEEING THE SUN FOR THE FIRST TIME. He was overwhelmed and wanted to spend his time with her, every single day, every single night. They were happy at first. All fun and games. But weeks after, Ruby starts to feel lonely because Calvin 'do not have any friends' which brings a lot of pressure to her.

Ruby then enters an art class, meets new friends and spends time in her apartment. Although this experiment (of sleeping in her apartment) is just once a week, Calvin becomes miserable that he made Ruby stop the art class and everything that makes them not together. LOVE MADE CALVIN SELFISH.

(If you’ve watched the trailer and/or have read the synopsis, you would know how Ruby became Calvin’s girlfriend. Right. Calvin dreams about her, writes about her characteristics and backstory and poof! Ruby appears in his apartment.)

Another issue is CONTROL.

Every man has this picture in mind of his dream girl. Every man dreams of this perfect girl who will someday change his life and his perspective about it. Lucky are those who already had found theirs. Luckier is Calvin who not only found his dream lover but also has control over her, literally though.

Since Calvin ‘manifested a woman by his mind’, everything he writes about her comes true. You know what Calvin did to make Ruby stop leaving for art class and her apartment? Well he just wrote that 'Ruby was miserable without Calvin' and it becomes true.Ruby suddenly calls Calvin telling him she wants to go home because she misses him so much. No big deal.

But this is not the only change he made because every time Ruby acts as a real person and not the skeleton of Calvin’s writing, he makes some changes to her and something wrong comes up that also needs revision, which, as a matter of fact, just destroys everything they had as a couple and as humans. Calvin gets dead tired of everything. He ends his manipulation of the girl he loves and decides to end the book of his love story. He told everything to Ruby and she disappeared the next day.

Calvin then returns to himself, sad and alone. He publishes this book he entitles “THE GIRLFRIEND” but was more than sad than happy. At the end, well this I do not want to spoil. Just see it yourself alright? I've said enough. :)

The movie's intriguing in its fanciful way one has to wonder if a monkey's paw was involved. I really hope everyone sees and learns from this movie that people make mistakes and that no relationship is perfect. People who love each other just have to work things out. Everyone needs to grow and realize that the world does not revolve around just one person. We should always think of others' interest before making a decision rather than just ours.

Love is not a game where one has to be the better player. It is a lifetime commitment.

Love is not sacrificing the other person's happiness for the sake of yours. It's a give and take process.

Love is not controlling the other so he/she would act according to your liking. It's letting them be themselves.

Love is not selfish. It is selfless and kind.

Love is not changing the other person. It is accepting them as they are.

SELFISHNESS. CONTROL. LOVE. AND TOO MUCH OF EACH.

THIS IS RUBY SPARKS.